My problems

How to solve my own problems when i know i am having problems?

Sometimes, is emotional problems.... now i know is hard to control feelings....

Now i know is hard to not to think....

Now i know i am so freaking sensitive with things....

How to change myself? How? How? How?

Let's forget that and solve the major one first....

I am vomiting too frequently... i am sick every now and then and feeling so weak..

something is definately not right somewhere....

i should consult doctor shouldn't i???

mentally and physically ill

Things have never been right.... Everything have it's good and bad side....

Everything have a positive and negative view....

Not in the good situation right now.... To say it is my fault, probably...

To not say is my fault, probably...

Sometimes, you never know what's the actual problem...

Sometimes, there's no actual solution to it after all....

Time passes, proves things right....

Time passes, proves things wrong....

I'm not rather in a right situation to argue at all....

I forgotten my purse this morning...

Forgotten the notes which i wanted to ask my groupmate...

Couldn't think at all for the solution for assignment...

totally giving up english proposal for tomorrow...

eaten and throw up.... totally sick mentally and physically till i have no energy for any arguments ...

maybe after all, it was my fault, but then, maybe not.... instead of thinking...

i guess i just have to let it go...

relax, why stress up yourself so much~~~ that's what he said...

yeah, exactly.... that's me... i stressed up myself so much and i dont even know why...

i have serious hair drop and i'm freaking out already...

i wish i have a place to hide.... i'm afraid of my hair drop issue...

i guess the more i am afraid, the worst it gets right?

what can make me relax.... what can make me cure myself...

from all kinds of problems? maybe i should think of this~

别再吵架了，好吗？

就这样结束了。。。

一个没有答案的。。。

争论。。。

宝贝，

爱你。。。

可是，

我不会做人。。。

Thinking too Much or is the Truth?

You know.... sometimes is not about not trusting... is about what you have done to not let people trust you.... Trust build with time, and breaks in seconds~

I always wanted to have trust in you but the fact that you're doing things secretly makes trust gone.... Most of the time you would rather do it without the knowledge of mine.

Well, i sometimes, have no trust in myself. I dont know can i trust my own trust afterall~~~~ Look, this may be either thinking too much or even is the truth...

Let time prove this to me... I hope i have the time...

sigh

You changed, my dear~

You've changed without knowing~

Is a brand new Day

My lovely dear dear had told me what happen and the gloomy days have ended!

I . Love . You .

I online this morning and i found i'm tagged in some awesome photo!

Damn! I look good okay~~~

Honestly, i did put on mascara lah....

But did't put on thick make up like LingLing, Kelly and Phui Theng....

Reason is because-- i doesn't know how to make up...LOLzzz

Let me show you my awesomeness that night

This is Phui Theng and I

Sweet isn't it.... She's still single and available btw. LOLzz

This is YeeLing and I

We share a large Pepperoni Pizza that night

This is LingLing and I

She's good in dressing up and put on make up...

Look, she's good right? She's tall plus her heels...

Makes me look like a small child beside the big mother... Lolsss

This is KarYen and I

She's like a everyday working lady...

She's sooo RAJIN... and Pretty... with great patient...

This is Kelly and I

SOmething wrong with the focusing i guess...

SHe's wonderful! can study can play can drink!

Last bu not Least,

The girls that i did't took photo with..

Mei Foong n Sunny!

I'm guilty for the wrong thing

I used to think... I shall blog what's happy... what shall be kept as memories but unfortunately, i come to this blog whenever i'm in trouble, i'm emotional, i'm unhappy and there's no one suitable to listen to what i would like to say.

Make this simple, i made him unhappy and i dont fucking know the exact reason. I would have to start this story all from the start,where it starts with an end that i have towards my examination.

I finish my paper "happily"... Like, yeah right... I'm not even happy because i knew i screw the paper... Went for lunch with wan yin and her classmate in jusco and do some window shopping and off i'm home.

I decided not to take a nap because i know if i did, i would screw up with the nap and unable to attend the very last dinner of Fabulour Four. I went online, had some fun with games and off i go...

We were like waiting for almost an hour in TARC hostel to make sure everyone arrives and off we go to Desa Sri Hartamas for dinner. It was at Souled Out. We ordered and had our dinner and celebrated Woon Kin's birthday there.

After dinner, they decided to go to Kepong for a drink. In a pub. Overtime. I went with them and i came home late. My bf drove me home.

I knew he was unhappy and i seriously dont know what i did... for all the reason he said no to.... what are the rest that it could possibly be?

The last time it happened like this was because i refuses to tell what's wrong with me.... I kept it all... I keep everything or rather really everything is because i doesn't want any arguement going all around... Since i'm such a forgetful person... I might just forget it the next day and lifes goes on...

But it doesn't apply to it when someone keeps repeating it. I felt his anger towards me since yesterday till this very moment not knowing the exact reason... He said i doesn't even know the reason and would never change... Could that be hint telling me that is the same reason for all i have kept something from him and not telling him what i felt?

Could what i have posted in his facebook status was a fault?
Or the reason is that i've been quite all day long?

He said nothing related to a 3rd party and that's all i can think of... or rather, i would think is a fault... Or have i done something that i dont even know is a fault? The dumbness in me? or the attitude i have toward's life that is wrong?

Now, this is an unknown that i will never know unless i really do something to find out... Emotional isn't it... I felt like crying but i keep them back... I should have no reason to cry... I just gotta be strong and face the problem... I must do something about it... Sighs, but for me... I sure cry when i start speaking the very first word... or after awhile after i start talking... something born in me makes me express my emotion through tears...

Finish Final Examination Madness and Sadnss

Let me have the photo do the talking while i bring you through my feeling.

Souled Out. Is the place we went.

15 of us from Fabulous Four.

Name: Kelly, Wai Hoong, Peter, Phui Theng, Ling Ling, Seng Seng,

Woon Kin, Mei Foong, SUnny, YeeLing, Ziyi, Wei Long, Darren, Kar Yen and I.

The person who suggested this place. Honorable Mei Foong.

and the bestie right beside her. Sunny Yap.

The Food that we ordered. Not all of it is here of course. Everyone commented it is nice. I find mine good but the salmon pizza ain't my type.


and... i couldn't continue the story anymore.

An injection on my pretty butt

Yeah! i got allergy till the extend that i need injection on my butt... you should get how serious i got.... and one side of my butt feels so numb and is gonna swallon soon since is my first time having injection other than while i was a baby girl~~~~

drowsy.... the injection + all my medicine have this effect... and right now i'm about to faint.... oh my god.... what is this man... i have to take an injection, all the medicine till it finish.... go on vegetarian till i recover or at last a week... and go back to the doctor if i did't recover after all these and i'll get a letter! a letter to admit into the hospital for specialist.... oh my oh my... nothing sounds more serious than the letter... the doctor is freaking me out!!!!

I guess this week i will not have the mood to study.... sorry if i ask you guys about what's happening in class next week when i am more conscious.... right now... i have to take medicine 3 times a day which makes me drowsy... sorry if i ignore you when i am blur or sleep all the day unable to fight with the medicine... but i'll put a smile on my face whenever i remembers... cheers!

and birthday celebration can forget about it... because i cant even eat egg which means i cant even eat cake! got it? thanks to everyone who have a heart at least to give me a cake or a celebration... sorry but i'm a vegetarian till i recover... T.T

Exam finish =)

I'm glad that my exam finishes.... since i'm so free.... i went and think back what i have really done for my exam...LOL!

i did 5 main + 1 resit.

Business Law
-first paper.
-i memorise like shit and till this moment, i still remember that shit in my brain. especially law of tort. Donoghue v Stevenson =S
-i am sure i can pass this paper. confidently. A or B then tak tau lah...

Management Accounting
-second paper.
-i did all passyear calculation and i bet all my friends did too. theory part memorise some and jump some.
-calculation was hard indeeed.
-theory was crazy.
-i guess i can either get a B or C with a pass GUA~

Information Technology & System
-3rd paper.
-my resit paper.
-dont ask me why i resit but i just do.
-i study like mad and it wans't hard.
-full confident to get a pass =)

Financial Accounting Framework
-4th paper.
-worst paper.
-worry cant pass paper.
-i dont wanna resit this paper.
-because i hell of a shit hard!
- i know nothing but i crapped alot. wishing for a pass.

Financial Management
-last 2nd subject.
-is a scoring subject.
-but i fall sick. did't study much and gave away 2 calculation question marks.hoping the rest still correct.
-get a B back bah~~~~ please~

Business Economics
-last paper.
-did it today. this morning.
-had confident with this paper.
-i think i can get an A back~
-so i am so so so happy =)

phew~~~ done. finally. finally. others. let the examniner to decide what result to give me...=)

is about time for CNY =) i going bali too =) and making cookies too =) anyone want de... tell me oh... keep some for u bah =) if i really got make lar~