Feeling happy but not well

I did my MAF so so today... wont die definately... =) Owh, i did my best and that's all that matters... I did the freaking same mistake and i manage to get it in the end... Thank god for having so much time available~ Loves~~~~ today exam.... because i feel happy finishing it...

I'm actually worried of FA... i watch drama series to clear my MAF off my brain... but now i feel so breathless... I am so tired and wanna sleep... I guess revision tonight sure fail... Tmr only do bah... Oh, i'm cooking breakfast tmr morning... egg,bread, hotdog, milk... healthy isn't it? Yeah, those American breakfast... I'm too lazy to go out and eat so i choose to cook myself at home... =)

En en, staying home tmr... i bought some junk so i can munch on when i'm bored... Life's good when u make urself enjoy during these time...hehe... Hmmm... i wonder.... My housemate tend to think i am talking to my bf when i talk to my brother... And he say "why so sweet ah? bf ah?".... the thing is... i talk to my brother that sweet meh? I don't sweet talk nor anything... LOL...

One thing i wanna say... this blog is for me to express myself... not for u to criticise...BLUEK~

Blog

Hah, my brother was talking about blog and i finally know he got blog...LOL~
Well, the blog filled with his thought, feelings, and everything that parents should not see~ LOL!
My blog is a open blog so i guess everyone can see how EMO i am at times and how SIAO i am at times...
Well, i am still thinking..."WHY?" to many question... but i don't really hope for an answer that hurts me badly...

Today, i went to the temple and pray my grandma that passed away... for the whole morning.. from 9am till 1pm... Oh dear, my spend half of my day in a temple... and the other half of the day sleeping due to bad headache from the hot sun... Now i'm feeling extremely scared and worried because i did't study at all today... Well, never hope for an A actually... i hope for pass with a better results... To please my parents and also myself... I guess i need to use my heart to study le... or i'll be real dead soon~

I'm actually looking forward to finish exam... My last paper is on the 3rd of Sept and on the 4th of Sept i've got a job in Desa Jaya. After my work, i'm going to WaiHoong's house for DAC4 class party! Is a BBQ and Steamboat party... But the problem is, i can go to his place... but how to go back? Even my mum thinks is weird... I've got several choice.. See if i can squeeze into any car and go back to wangsa maju and sleep... or sleepover at his place and go to KTM station the next morning...or ask him to send me to my aunty's place.. wonder if he knows the place or not... i can sleep with my cousins then ^^

Oh well, skip that... if i remember clearly... I'm having a sleepover session with WanYing, MeiXin, Kirsten, Jess , Sophia and who else? Yeah.. Sleepover in WanYing's house just like last year... Awww, i miss you girls so much... I can barely see you girls... One year never meet you girls? Yeah, we gonna spend our time there in her house... blast it off shall it? Hehe~

Think further think further, I'll be working in hartamas for around a week... FULL time btw... I guess that's gonna be boring but i have my beloved brother... he'll accompany me for that whole week... yay!

After that my family planned a trip to go up Kuantan, Terengganu... bring my grandpa go relax... And our motive is to go to the beach... Other than that, i'm supposed to google search any nice place and we'll hunt it out... My mum wants adventure... SO we shall go for it... Muahahahhaa... I'll be the map reader again if i'm the one planning the next stop... OKay, stop thinking abt this...

Next next, i got WanYin, my laopo supposed to go fullhouse with me! we havent go there together yet lah... After exam is the best time to go... with camera! we shall spend one whole day there... camwhoring~~~~ Loves~~

Ahhhh, Gim Aun my lovely fish will bring me go I-City if he is free~ SO i guess is smtg to look forward too! Fish, no ffk har~

Ahhh, left one more broga hill i did't managed to go... SAD.... Btw, who's free to bring me up? Oh, talking about broga, i'm going to Bukit Tabur again with Joyce and YongYong... Hehe, is good to hike up a hill... Oh oh,one more thing i wanna say is... We go take picture too... the previous time i did't take because i was kinda...BLUR!

Hmmm... my holiday full with all kinds of activity and more to go! I wanna enjoy it to the fullest... Not sure if i'm available for the Penang trip and Genting trip... But i will try to arrange and see if i have the $$ and time to go... Cant confirm now since.... i donnoe alot... we shall think abt it later okay?

Bad times will go off soon... So, Prudence! Gambate~ u can do it... =)
Kor, gambate in ur exams...
Friends, gambate in ur exams...
Baby, gambate in ur exams...

Family, Friends, My admirers, My Baby, I love all of you...
For making my life ups and downs... Happy and Sad...
I finally know this.... Annica =) Will appreciate every single second i have =)

Signing off,
Prudence

guitar~

When everything's over... finally.... I've got no headache, no worries right now~
Tax is over! but is already week 13~ sad sad... in 2 weeks time and i'm having my finals... OMG~ So, i've gotta start my revision before is too late~

Btw, what's memorable today is the GUITAR! well, people tend to used acoustic guitar to KAO LUI... and yeah la, u can KAO me using that lah... because i really do like acoustic guitar! I'm bringing that acoustic guitar back with me during semester break... Weeeee, i finally get what i want... play guitar! I know i forgotten what i've learn last time... but who cares, i can learn again ^^

Awwww... i just love sitting silently by the side listening to someone play guitar and sing along... It reminds me of Kirsten, Julia and Syamim... Awww, i'm always the little one who doesn't know how to play nor sing... but always the best audience and comment feedback person~

Hmmm....overall... a happy day... since i slept like pig just now...KAKAKA~

A barrier

That's what i find blocking us from communicating... And you tend to keep it rather than speak it out... Communication doesn't work one way.... Ever learn the communication process? It needs a feedback to complete the whole cycle... And i find myself unable to complete the cycle if i'm only speaking with no feedbacks~ or rather let's put it this way... I get to complete the process feeling empty? The feedback is... Nothing...

Looking for a new pair of sandals...

Hey people, who's free enough to teman me go somewhere to buy a new pair of sandals... Almost all my sandals take it's own sweet time meeting each other in the tong sampah~ They melted away, stripe break off, and whole sandal breaks into 2..WOW? I told my mum about my sandal and she say "is good, so that you can get new ones" oh well, i'm in the mood of going window shopping and buy sandals... who's free for that?

我又错了吗？

我无法不理会，因为我关心。。。
我无法不在乎，因为我在乎。。。
我无法控制我自己，因为那已成了我的习惯~

如果一句没事是真的没事，那就太好了。。。
如果一句没事是假的呢，那你就在逃避了。。。

我们是来自不同的世界。。。
在对的时间地点认识了。。。
可却无法接通我们的想法。。。
我们还没谈，我还在等。。。

世上无难事，只怕有心人。。。
我相信我用心对待是可以把最烂的事情弄好。。。
只怕那是我一厢情愿的。。。

我身边的人告诉我。。。
你那么伤心何必呢？
可是，有谁会明白你对我的重要性？
有谁会知道我为什么不放弃？

我觉得我在改变。。。
我在为这一切努力。。。
可却我不知道什么是对的，什么是错的。。。

难道，我做的每一件都是错的？
我今天其实还蛮开心的。。。
可是，只要看你那一秒的不开心脸。。
我就会有罪恶感~
把开心都给忘了。。。 满脑想。。
怎么办？我该怎么办？

Because of Jealousy

OKay, since someone was jealous about what happened... Let's talk about jealousy... Is jealousy a good thing? Well, it depends~ What kind of thing that u're jealous about.. To what extend you jealous.. and the reaction you have when u jealous~

But i know, the jealousy you have actually makes me feel happy in a way... You jealous because you care! right? thx btw... for caring~

Honestly telling, I jealous before too... Just the fact that you did't noticed and never asked... So i just keep it deep in my heart and forget it... Well, certain things jealous for nothing also~

What happened? is the only question all the busybody and caring friends will ask... Since i know people will ask me either in facebook or come directly to me in msn... I'll just blogged it...

I used a guy's phone to send another guy my photo... The owner of the phone AKA Shuai jealous because of what i did... Logic isn't it? Yeah, i know... I did it because i promised Benny NeohSK, my teddy that i know for many years that i will send him a photo just because he wanna update his phone... i dragged for probably a month already and he was actually unhappy with it~ Well, no point ruining a friendship because of a photo? But the thing is.... no point ruining a relationship with the guy because of a friend too right? SO, Benny... go explain to him~ pls? i know u wont make me stuck in a bad situation~

Oh, forget about the jealousy.. I hope he is fine~
Today is Jeremy Danker's birthday.... Happy birthday dude... Jeremy... I admire this guy's thought... Anything is good to him... and he fav quote when he was still in secondary..."what's the worst can happen? DIE only mah".... Exactly, what's the worst can happen? go for it... life is all about challenges... going through them... learn and prevent... to feel, to experience...

My Willpower, My Strength

I guess the decision made was right... People cant talk when they are emotionally down... Oh well, is a monday morning... is so cold and bright... Wake up Prudence, wake the brain up as well... Stop being so emo and see the bright future... Walk out, take a deep breath and start a brand new day... Nothing is impossible... Since even the word impossible brings the meaning of "I'm Possible" in it...

I don't know what gives me the energy... or who gives me the strength... I'm lucky to have Benny no longer angry at me... Owh, do u know who's that? He's like the god of Prudence... He knows me damn well... He's basically the first teddy i always said~ Owh, don't get it wrong... He's not my bf nor anything... He got a girl himself~ He is like... my soulmate who knows me better than myself... Is good to have such people in ur life isn't it? Btw, it was sad when he actually angry at me...

Okay, let's not talk about him... Talk abt me... I need power, i need strength... I believe what my mum said is right... Is the will power that a person have... If you think you can, you really think so, action made, you can succeed with the willpower u have~ No one can give me that willpower except myself... So, i'm standing up strong... giving myself the willpower... and do anything that i think is impossible...=) Good Luck, Prudence~ That's life... falling down is just part of it... Standing up from it is smtg great... Make urself great!!!